I live in my head, the scenery's great.

[foxyfurs]

Due to what seems to be the onset of early menopause (my third period in forty days wt-everlovin'-f) and the associated crabbiness and aches, I've had an absolutely miserable week.

First? Holy crap, this is horrible. I'm actually really grateful I'm not working, because I've had to start putting down towels on all my seats. I mean, is it at all *normal* to bleed through everything in two hours? WFT, body?? I'm running out of clothes, stoppit!

Second, said grumpiness and pains do NOT go well with pretty violent moodswings. I've blown up at one friend and I'm not sure how to start fixing it. I'm sorta against outright grovelling and begging for forgiveness, because I've done that shit all my life with my family and my ex, and it actually feels weirdly *good* to be righteously indignant. I'm such a horrible person.

Thirdly, I've retreated to comfort food and fic. My body both loves and hates the comfort food, and my heart both loves and hates the fic. I'm filled with happiness while it's being devoured, and all depressed and weirdly yearning again once it's done, so I go searching for another.

If anyone's got any recommendations, that'd be amazing. I'll take advice, links to happy pictures, and directions to feel-good fiction. Really. Anything, at this stage.

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[foxyfurs]

I'm the only girl in this generation of my family, so I can't consult sisters, but my mother's side really didn't do well with internal health issues. My grandmother died in her fifties, my mom had her menopause for *eight years* and says she bled pretty constantly the whole time. I'm thirty-three! It wasn't supposed to happen yet!! /pathetic whine

Fic! I love you so much. /glomps you gratefully

[senmut]

Mom's side? menopause in their 60s.

Dad's female relatives? 40s. So I'm on track, at nearing 36, to be peri. Funnily enough, it made my actual cycle iron out to something approaching regular. I just have all the PHYSICAL issues, complicated by a thyroid that may or may not function properly month to month.

[foxyfurs]

Yeah, all my internal issues so far have been GI-track related. One brother with Chron's disease, one with IBS, and me with diverticulitis. All of us with "change your diet for the rest of your life" diagnoses.

It's the doctors that scare me the most, though. Too many years in retail = I think their bedside manner SUCKS. Talk to *me,* dammit, not the guy next to me who you think is holding the checkbook.

[senmut]

YES! UGH!

I mean, with my late partner, there's a reason the docs all got used to talking to me. Her memory was swiss cheese. ( We won Disability for her, I believe, because the Judge asked her her birthday, and she had to look across the room to me to supply it) but yes, if the patient is ABLE talk to THEM.